Hybrid Church Task Force: First Report

May 5, 2023

The Hybrid Church Task Force is a group gathered to help Rev. Miranda and the Vestry reflect on how to make sure we tend to the needs and hopes of our “digital members,” including those who are homebound (temporarily or for the long term) and those who live at a distance, and to think together about how to develop and deepen a sense of ourselves as one church community even though people worship in different modalities. 

The Task Force includes people who worship primarily or exclusively on Zoom and some who do both in-person and Zoom worship. 

We have met three times so far, focusing on worship and fellowship, and expect to continue to topics like welcome and evangelism, formation, outreach, and more. 

We encourage both Zoom and in-person worshippers to read this report, ponder, and share any thoughts, reactions or ideas!

THINGS WE’VE LEARNED SO FAR…

The Church is the body of Christ and there are many ways to embody that even when we are not together in the same space in our bodies.

There’s a sense of spiritual mystery – or at least, of the capacity for spiritual mystery – in worship, that can be harder to incarnate on Zoom. We would like to experiment further with creating a little silence now and then, and with inviting people into embodiment during Zoom worship, such as by lighting a candle, crossing themselves, creating a prayer space, etc. Zoom folks like these ideas but feel that more cues/reminders and instruction would be helpful. 

In terms of connectedness and relationship, Zoom worship can have greater intimacy than in-person worship. You can see people’s faces and names, and hear or read their prayer requests and blessings. However, Zoom is not very conducive to the kind of casual before- or after-chats where you get to know somebody better. 

We’ve talked a lot about how to try offering a little “coffee hour” time before or after Zoom worship. There are time constraints, because Rev. Miranda has to go lead 10AM worship, but there are ways around that. The real question is how to have Zoom fellowship be warm and satisfying, and that’s not as simple as it seems. Because it’s the nature of Zoom for only one voice to be heard at a time, it’s easy for someone to dominate the conversation, even unintentionally, or for those who know each other to chit chat about mutual interests and friends and forget that there are newer members and even visitors present. (To be fair, the same thing can happen in person!) A Zoom fellowship time would need some structure and facilitation, and perhaps the use of Zoom “breakout rooms” so that smaller groups can talk amongst themselves. (People would also need to be free to opt out, of course!)  Breakout rooms could be “themed” – for example, people who want to talk about a piece of art we looked at; people who want to discuss the day’s Scriptures; people who just want general chat;   people to respond to a friendly get-to-know-each-other question; and so on. This would take a little structure and planning, and some facilitators willing to help make it happen, but it’s not difficult and we could absolutely give it a try. 

In terms of music in Zoom worship, some people enjoy singing along with the prepared hymn recordings and some prefer to just listen. Musical offerings prepared by members of the congregation (thanks, Behrens family and Father Tom McAlpine!) are especially welcome and appreciated. Some people miss the feeling of singing along with many other voices, and we wonder if it may be possible to record some group singing and share that on Zoom in future. Using recorded music from elsewhere would be possible but feels like a last resort; overall, the group feels that it matters to know the people making the music. 

Sharing art works well on Zoom, and some Zoom folks would love to go even deeper with that, perhaps having information about a focal piece of art sent out with the Enews so they can look at it ahead of time. 

In 2020 and into 2021, our Zoom congregation included many children. Now, most of our kids attend in person, except occasionally for reasons of illness, travel, etc. The Zoom congregation understands, but misses them. We will look for ways the kids of St. Dunstan’s can occasionally share something with the Zoom congregation, and perhaps vice versa, to develop a deeper sense of shared community. 

We talked about a paradox: Many people who worship on Zoom miss receiving the Eucharist, but at the same time, very few have asked for Rev. Miranda or Eucharistic visitors to bring Communion, or responded affirmatively to surveys asking if that is a need. We think there are several aspects to this situation: people may feel uncomfortable having someone come to their home; people may feel like home Eucharist doesn’t feel the same as church Eucharist; people may feel that Rev. Miranda is too busy (and may be hesitant about a non-clergy Eucharistic visitor); people may feel that they “should” just get back to in-person church, even if that’s difficult for them. We agreed that we’d like to recruit some Pastoral Visitors and do another trial run of offering to have people take Communion out to the congregation, upon request, and see how it is received. We realize that we may have to do a little teaching about the validity of having a layperson share Communion in the context of a pastoral visit, and some relationship-building, to have this be well received. 

We can’t send Eucharistic visitors to our members who live at a distance. We can make sure to be supportive if they need help connecting with a local faith community for Eucharist or other care. 

Regarding “hybrid” worship (worship where people attend both on Zoom and in person): Members of our group have found, through experiences with St. Dunstan’s and other churches and groups, that it’s often hard to feel fully included in “hybrid” gatherings, where people are present both in person and on Zoom (though it can work better with smaller groups that know each other well). We will continue to work on both the technological and human aspects of doing hybrid worship and gatherings well, but the most likely use case for the foreseeable future will be things like funerals or the Annual Meeting where we really need to bring people together because logistics preclude doing both Zoom and in-person versions of the same event.

Replacing fully-Zoom worship with hybrid worship would be a substantial loss for the Zoom congregation and is not an attractive prospect. By a similar token, there is little interest in “live-streaming” or broadcasting our in-person worship online for people to watch at a distance. This doesn’t seem to be an option our community is asking for or needs. 

We’ve found that “hybrid” formation sessions and group meetings work somewhat better than hybrid worship, but we still need to improve our practices here, like consistently using our “Meeting Owl” device that allows those on Zoom to see and hear everyone who’s present in the room, and – when possible – appointing someone to watch the Zoom group to make sure Zoom participants have a chance to speak and participate. We are optimistic that we can keep developing these practices and habits, and get better! 

NEXT STEPS

Would you like to help with a trial run of Zoom fellowship breakout rooms after 9AM Zoom worship sometime? Contact Rev. Miranda at ! 

What ideas, thoughts, or hopes do you have, as you read through this? 

(If you’re interested in joining future Hybrid Church Task Force meetings, let Rev. Miranda know!) 

Bulletin for May 7

Bulletin for May 7

The link for the Zoom gatherings is available in our weekly E-news, in our Facebook group St. Dunstan’s MadCity, or by emailing Rev. Miranda:  .

THREE WAYS TO USE AN ONLINE BULLETIN…1
1. Print it out!

2. Open the bulletin on one device (smartphone or tablet) while joining Zoom worship on another device (tablet or computer).

3. On a computer, open the bulletin in a separate browser window or download and open separately, and view it next to your Zoom window

First quarter financial update, April 2023

First Quarter Financial Report, April 2023

Our financial reports for March are an opportunity to check in on our financial well-being. Our 2023 budget is a deficit budget, meaning we expect to take in about $13,000 less than we need to maintain our common life and ministries at current levels. Your Finance Committee and Vestry are committed to keeping a close eye on our finances and sharing what we see with the parish.

Here is an informal narrative report based on the first quarter of 2023:

INCOME:  Our income is very close to our budget at this point. We are right on the mark with pledge payments – thank you so much. What we call “plate” giving – general giving to the church (check, cash, or online transaction) – is also strong.

EXPENSE: We’ll go through the Expense part of the budget by category — and flag places where interested folks may be able to volunteer their time and skill.

Volunteer opportunity: Rev. Miranda hopes we can organize our art and craft 

supplies soon, so we can plan projects using what we have. If that sounds fun and 

you’d like to help, let Rev. Miranda know!

  • OTHER MINISTRIES: The total is over budget mainly because Kitchen and Fellowship expenses are over budget. For context, our 2019 pre-Covid budget for this area was $3500, and we budgeted $2000 for 2023, not knowing how ready we would feel to eat together in 2023. Higher food prices are also a factor.  

Volunteer opportunity: If you would enjoy occasionally providing snacks or a  

light meal for social gatherings or group meetings, let Rev. Miranda know!

  • BUILDINGS AND GROUNDS: We are over budget due to two expense lines: Gas and Electric (by over $2000) and Snow Removal (by around $3000). Our solar panels should be installed very soon, reducing electricity costs by about 75%. Snow removal costs are more difficult to manage.

Planning for the Future: This spring we plan to set up a Place-Keeping Fund to receive designated gifts and bequests to support the ongoing costs of maintaining our buildings and grounds while reducing the strain on the annual budget. Talk with Rev. Miranda or Val McAuliffe if you’d like to learn more. 

  • ADMINISTRATION: This area is about $1200 over budget. We expect most costs to even out in the months ahead.
  • DIOCESAN & OTHER PROPERTY EXPENSES: Both of these budget areas are very close to budget.

The Bottom Line 

We are about $8800 over budget right now in our expenses. 

As the wider society is dealing with inflation and other long-term ripple effects of the Covid pandemic, so are we. A wise member of the Vestry told us in 2020 to expect prolonged uncertainty and financial stretch. St. Dunstan’s has also been affected by the deaths of long-time faithful and generous givers, some of whom helped sustain our budget for decades.

We have received generous gifts to help us weather this time and even grow in our capacity. At this point, our parish leaders do not feel it’s time for cuts that would impact our ministries and common life. But we are aware we can’t continue with deficit budgets indefinitely. We are exploring solutions to protect the long-term sustainability of St. Dunstan’s. If you have ideas to share, let us know. 

In the meantime, your continued gifts of time, money, and skill sustain our community. Thank you. 

To see complete and detailed financial statements, contact our Treasurer Valerie McAuliffe at . 

Bulletin for April 30

Bulletin for April 30

The link for the Zoom gatherings is available in our weekly E-news, in our Facebook group St. Dunstan’s MadCity, or by emailing Rev. Miranda:  .

THREE WAYS TO USE AN ONLINE BULLETIN…1
1. Print it out!

2. Open the bulletin on one device (smartphone or tablet) while joining Zoom worship on another device (tablet or computer).

3. On a computer, open the bulletin in a separate browser window or download and open separately, and view it next to your Zoom window

Parish Center photo gallery

Here are some photos of our Parish Center spaces.

counter with sink and cabinets above
Kitchenette on ground floor. There is also a sink and counter area on the upper level, for coffee/beverages.
Large room with wood floor and ceiling
The upper level room. Open space; good light; seats 70 – 80.
Large sofa and two chairs around a small table.
Conversation area on ground floor.
Chairs around a table in a room
Additional meeting space on ground floor
Small room with pile of cushions on the floor
Corner room, used for prayer by our youth groups. Use by other groups to be negotiated.

Sermon, April 23

This tender Gospel story is a favorite of mine, and of many. 

We meet these two disciples, Mary and Cleopas, on the way home a couple of days after Jesus’ death. They figure everything is over and they might as well get back to everyday life. 

But they’re still talking about it all, and grieving.

By the way: Luke only names Cleopas here, but John’s Gospel names “Mary the wife of Clopas” as one of the women who stood near the cross as Jesus was dying. Clopas and Cleopas are almost certainly variants of the same name. 

So, we have a couple, followers of Jesus, part of the group that came with him to Jerusalem, returning, now, to their home in Emmaus, about eight miles from Jerusalem. 

And on the way… a stranger walks with them. 

When Father John and I talked about this story last week, he pointed out something I hadn’t noticed before: that this Gospel story echoes what the church does when we gather. 

We meet one another. 

We check in, sometimes – how are you? How are things? You look sad… 

We read and reflect on Scripture – how does it speak to us? Is there something here to hep us find meaning or make sense of our world and what we’re experiencing?  

At Eucharistic services we share a meal – with one another and with Jesus. 

Then we get up and set out, shaped by our time together, perhaps – sometimes – with hope or good news to share with others. 

I love this Gospel story, but I’m not going to talk about it much today.

Instead I want us to notice how it’s one example of the physicality of the risen Jesus. 

He walks on a dusty road.

He sits down to share a meal. 

He breaks bread. 

He seems to be a person with a body – even though he also vanishes unexpectedly from the dinner table. 

Other resurrection encounters point in the same direction. 

Jesus eats fish. He breathes on people.

Thomas pokes at his wounds.

He cooks breakfast.

He returns to visit, console, and commission his friends, in his real, physical body. Scars and all. 

That’s important not just because a ghost would be an easier story for the early church to tell… expected, almost. 

But it’s also important because of what it says about the material world, this world we live in. 

The idea of transcending material reality and returning as a spiritual being was just as present and perhaps just as tempting two thousand years ago as it is now.

Some of the core ideas of New Age spirituality have been around for a long, long time. 

Like the idea that this world is a flawed crappy knockoff of a superior spiritual plane, and that the goal of existence is to achieve enlightenment and escape from this physical world. 

The cave allegory of the Greek philosopher Plato – the idea that the things we perceive in this world are just shadows of a more true reality elsewhere – had been around for hundreds of years by the time Jesus was born. 

We can see the pull of these kinds of ideas now and then in the New Testament – of a strong dualism between the material and the spiritual, with the material being deemed bad, flawed, lesser.

John’s Gospel, for example, walks right up to that line now and then, in passages that feed the development of Gnostic Christianity a few decades later, in the late first and early second century. 

For Gnostic Christians, this world was the creation of some lesser, malevolent god, not the supreme and good God. Jesus was a divine being who came into our world to show us that we can transcend material reality and become divine ourselves. 

Gnostic Christianity thrived for a while, but ultimately was declared a heresy – not consistent with the emerging theology of the Church – largely because it did not honor the incarnation and resurrection, the physicality and this-wordliness of Jesus’ life and teaching. 

So: First Judaism, and then Christianity, were well aware of various versions of the idea that this world – nature, our bodies, human wellbeing – don’t really matter, because spiritual reality is primary. 

And first Judaism, and then Christianity, reject and resist that idea. 

This world matters. 

How we act in this world matters. 

Our human wellbeing matters. 

Our use of resources, our stewardship of creation, matters. 

Which brings me to Earth Day. 

Early Christianity was perhaps not hugely interested in creation and the health of ecosystems. 

But significant parts of Old Testament Judaism were. 

Parts of the Hebrew Bible take God’s care for – and human responsibility for – Creation and the land very seriously indeed. 

And over the millennia, many Christians have, as well. 

We have seen that the world that God called good, the world that God came into and redeemed in Jesus Christ, merits our care, curiosity, and commitment. 

We’ve looked on the diversity, complexity, beauty and strangeness of Creation in wonder, seeing it as a window into the heart of the Creator. 

I think something like that was probably at work for Father Childs, the founding rector of St. Dunstan’s, who had an inordinate fondness for conifers. 

He oversaw the planting of a wide range of conifer trees on our church grounds. 

Many of those trees – imported from different climates – have not survived the decades, but we still have enough diversity on the grounds that UW professors regularly bring students out here for identification practice. 

Appreciation of, and care for, creation as a value goes back to the earliest years of this parish. 

We’ve given it fresh attention in the past decade – including the work of a Task Force in 2016 to develop our parish Creation Care Mission Statement. [You can read it in your bulletin.]

There’s a lot I love about that work. 

I continue to find these to be helpful guideposts. 

And: I think it lacks a note of urgency that might be present if we did that work today – just seven years later. 

As the signs of climate crisis become more evident month by month, year by year, I think that for many of us creation care feels less like a sort of ethical hobby, and more like a core concern that weighs on all our plans and decisions. 

We don’t know how to make sense of it or handle it, but it looms on the horizon like a dark cloud of uncertainty, fear and grief. 

Unprecedented floods, storms, fires, droughts, species and ecosystem losses pile up in the news, week by week. 

And it doesn’t feel like anyone with the power to change the trajectory has the will to do so. 

 

In our Epiphany Climate Circle discussions – based on materials developed by the All We Can Save Project – one of the the session themes was Reframe. It invited us to think about the role of language, story, and culture. 

One of the discussion prompts really caught my attention, in my role as a church leader: “Consider your organization’s role in shaping the ‘climate story.’ Does your [organization] leverage its storytelling and culture-shaping power for climate?” 

I wonder what that could look like. 

A church is most certainly a storytelling organization. 

And as liturgical Christians, we hope that our weekly worship forms us, over time, towards the kinds of people God needs in the world. That’s a kind of culture-shaping power.

We pray, weekly, for the earth and the whole created order. 

Is that enough? Sometimes it doesn’t feel like it. 

We used to use a longer version of our Prayers of the People that included these words: Spirit of Wisdom, move us from fear and despair towards courage and compassion.

Guide us to actions that protect and renew.

Maybe we need something like that, that lets us name out loud the feelings and challenges of this season, and ask for God’s help and guidance. 

Or maybe there’s some other way our shared worship could help form us for the days and years ahead. 

I don’t know the answer. But I wonder. 

I’d be interested in your ideas. 

How is your organization using its storytelling power for climate?  That question is why I decided to preach Earth Day today, instead of staying closer to our Scriptures. 

It made me want to think out loud, to wonder with all of you, how we’re called – as people of the resurrection, as Easter people – to Christian living as if this world really matters.

Even when that means taking on the grief and frustration and fear of rapid climate change and all that it might mean, for humanity and for the creatures and systems and places we love. 

One of the biggest deterrents to looking head-on at climate change is that it can make us feel really helpless. 

The material we used for our first round of Climate Circles – I hope we’ll do more! – wrestles with that helplessness and points at some important things that we can do. 

The first being: Sit with our feelings. Sit with the grief and frustration, anger and fear, the overwhelming uncertainty. 

Feel them. Process them. Share them. Find ways to release them together, and let them drive us to action, instead of overwhelming and paralyzing us. 

One important point in the readings for the Climate Circle group is that our feelings have been weaponized against us. 

For seventy years or so, Americans have been deliberately convinced that it’s our individual responsibility to protect the environment or save the planet. 

Whether by cleaning up litter, or recycling, or switching to LED bulbs, or using fabric bags at the grocery store. 

Those actions are all good! But they will not solve the problem. Huge, systemic changes in industrial, energy, and transit systems  are needed. 

But we have been intentionally taught to feel like it’s up to us – in order to deflect pressure from industry and government. 

That’s not a conspiracy theory; it’s historical fact. 

Feelings of guilt or shame over not consistently recycling, or not being able to afford an electric vehicle, or just generally not doing enough: those feelings just need to be named and released. 

To make room for more honest and fruitful emotions, like anger, grief, compassion, and determination. 

That said: It does matter for us to do the things we can, even small things, and to spread the word. 

I’ve gone to a couple of webinars on the Inflation Reduction Act – the IRA, and the incentives it offers for households to do various kinds of upgrades. 

And my biggest lightbulb moment was: Oh. 

This works if lots of people do it.

So, for example, the best thing a church can do is make sure its members know that the federal government would really like to pay you to put in a heat pump, or replace your gas stove with an electric stove, or buy an electric vehicle, right now. 

The more people use these incentives to help them take these kinds of steps, the more we shift, nationwide, towards electricity; and electricity can be, and will be, increasingly generated by sun and wind and water. 

I think the IRA is really important and I hope everybody will take a look at what it could offer them. There’s great info out there. 

But you may not be in a position to make home or vehicle upgrades! We all have different capacities and priorities. 

A couple of households have been able to make major gifts to help St. Dunstan’s install our solar panels. I’m so, so grateful.

And: Not everybody can do that. 

But we can all do something; and we can all spread the word. 

Our individual actions will not save the planet. 

But when our actions add up, they do have an impact. 

We can shift consumption patterns. 

We can shift habits and norms. 

We can shift public officials’ priorities. 

Another thing we can do is build local networks of mutual care and resilience. 

Get to know our neighbors. Share tools and ideas and resources. 

In an increasingly uncertain future – where larger systems may be more vulnerable to all kinds of risks – we’re going to need to look out for each other, and figure out ways to do what needs doing for ourselves and one another. 

Look: it’s not nothing that a committed group of five or six people made quite a lot of sugar, in March and April, right here on our grounds. 

Another thing we can do is cultivate imagination and hope. 

That’s perhaps a particularly important piece of the work for a church community. In our storytelling and culture-shaping role. 

A lot of the visions of the future that come at us are pretty grim – and the message can feel like, “You will have to give up everything you like to avoid this.” 

I’ve learned a little from a friend about solarpunk, a genre of art and fiction committed to developing visions of a green future that are actually attractive and motivating. 

Here’s a little from the Solarpunk Manifesto: 

“Solarpunk is a movement in speculative fiction, art, fashion, and activism that seeks to answer and embody the question “what does a sustainable civilization look like, and how can we get there?”…  As our world roils with calamity, we need solutions, not only warnings. Solarpunk wants to counter the scenarios of a dying earth, an insuperable gap between rich and poor, and a society controlled by corporations. Solarpunk is about finding ways to make life more wonderful for us right now, and also for the generations that follow us.”

https://www.re-des.org/a-solarpunk-manifesto/

I’m not proposing that we start developing Solarpunk Church – though, maybe? – but there is a lot to ponder here about how to bring creativity and hope to the challenges of this time. 

We can’t naively assume that human ingenuity will avert global catastrophe.

But we can lean into the places where human ingenuity is pointing towards better futures for all living things.

And let’s not count out God or God’s creation as partners in this season of challenge, adaptation, and possibility. 

This week I read a fascinating article in the Atlantic about the Great Pacific Garbage Patch – a massive collection of floating plastic debris in the Pacific Ocean. 

Everything I’d ever read about it before just posed it as a problem that we have to solve. A cleanup project.

This article said that scientists are discovering that various kinds of sea life are colonizing the plastic and making it their homes.

And in fact that it’s becoming a new kind of ecosystem, where organisms that usually live in coastal areas, and organisms that usually live in the open ocean, are cohabitating and interacting and thriving. 

Let me be clear: It’s not OK that there’s a huge amount of plastic floating in our oceans. Let’s stop putting plastic in the ocean, OK?

But it is a reminder of the vitality of the natural world and its systems. 

It makes me think of a favorite poem by Gerard Manley Hopkins – The World is Charged with the Grandeur of God. Writing in the mid-19th century, Hopkins expressed grief over the ways human activity and industry were marring and scarring the natural landscape – then writes: 

“And for all this, Nature is never spent;  

There lives the dearest freshness deep down things;

And though the last lights off the black West went

Oh, morning, at the brown brink eastward, springs —

Because the Holy Ghost over the bent

World broods with warm breast and with ah! bright wings.”

Let me close with one more short poem, by Adrienne Rich – words of sorrow and determination. 

My heart is moved by all I cannot save: 

so much has been destroyed 

I have to cast my lot with those who age after age, perversely, 

with no extraordinary power, reconstitute the world. 

May it be so. 

Amen. 

Bulletin for April 23

Bulletin for April 23

The link for the Zoom gatherings is available in our weekly E-news, in our Facebook group St. Dunstan’s MadCity, or by emailing Rev. Miranda:  .

THREE WAYS TO USE AN ONLINE BULLETIN…1
1. Print it out!

2. Open the bulletin on one device (smartphone or tablet) while joining Zoom worship on another device (tablet or computer).

3. On a computer, open the bulletin in a separate browser window or download and open separately, and view it next to your Zoom window

Bulletin for April 16

Bulletin for April 16

The link for the Zoom gatherings is available in our weekly E-news, in our Facebook group St. Dunstan’s MadCity, or by emailing Rev. Miranda:  .

THREE WAYS TO USE AN ONLINE BULLETIN…1
1. Print it out!

2. Open the bulletin on one device (smartphone or tablet) while joining Zoom worship on another device (tablet or computer).

3. On a computer, open the bulletin in a separate browser window or download and open separately, and view it next to your Zoom window

Easter Sermon, 2023

This is the day when the church proclaims most boldly and joyfully its most absurd and improbable convictions: That Jesus, murdered by the state, came back to life; and that this unlikelihood points towards an exponentially greater unlikelihood: That Love has conquered Death. That Death no longer has dominion over us – in some mysterious and ultimate sense, since people continue to die on a regular basis. 

I know that people have questions about it all. Not just little questions but big questions. And not just visitors or seekers, but people who worship here every week. Is this true? Does it matter? Does the church take this seriously? Does Rev. Miranda really believe it? Am I supposed to really believe it – and if so, which parts are most important?  And what does it mean if I don’t, or can’t? Or if I have to cross my fingers or edit the Creed a little, when we read that ancient statement of faith together on Sundays? 

There are people here, too, who do believe, at a deep level, even though a lot of it is hard and weird. We have the full range in the room today. We have the full range in the room every Sunday. 

And that’s fine! Nobody has to believe anything; that’s not how Episcopal and Anglican churches work. By design, we are a way of faith that defines membership and belonging by what we do together – by our participation in common worship. If you find meaning, comfort, peace, insight, purpose, beauty, connection, truth, joy in what we do together when we gather for worship, enough that you come back, regularly or when you can, then congratulations! You’re Episcopalian. 

But that doesn’t mean your questions and struggles don’t matter. And there is a particular kind of pressure on Easter Sunday. When the church preaches Christ crucified and risen – which is, as the apostle Paul noted two thousand years ago, a scandal and foolishness to those who don’t or can’t believe it. 

I mean, that’s just facts. It’s not news that this is hard to swallow. It was hard to swallow for the first Christians and those around them, too. 

People sometimes ask me if I believe it. And the answer is: Yes, I do. Partly, the miracles just have never bothered me that much. It’s not that I’m not a scientific thinker. But I guess … my brain just doesn’t catch on that. I don’t have a hard time believing that the God who invented DNA could reverse decay, for example.The fact that my faith doesn’t trip over the notion of a literal bodily resurrection, or the other miracles of the Gospels, doesn’t mean my faith is stronger than anybody else’s. I think that’s more a matter of personality and wiring. 

But actually: Whether or not I find this particular physical process credible is… not that central for me? Religious faith is not intellectual agreement with a list of doctrinal statements. One issue is with the word “believe”, as used in English. We use that word both in a religious sense and in a more everyday sense, meaning that we think something is true, factually speaking. That’s a confusing conflation of two rather different things. Many scholars say that the “belief” of the Bible is better translated as trust, loyalty, solidarity. Choosing your allegiances for the work and struggle of life. The word “belief” points too much towards the head, and not enough towards the heart and the gut. 

I resonate with what Francis Spufford says in his book Unapologetic: “I am a fairly orthodox Christian. Every Sunday I say and do my best to mean the whole of the Creed, which is a series of propositions… But it is… a mistake to suppose that it is assent to the propositions that makes you a believer. It is the feelings that are primary. I assent to the ideas because I have the feelings; I don’t have the feelings because I’ve assented to the ideas…” 

My faith is made up of a lot of things, and the fact that I’m able to tolerate the mystery of the resurrection flows out of those other things, rather than the reverse. My faith is made of the times when I’ve heard God speak to me to guide, challenge, or affirm, and the times when I have experienced divine mercy – consolation – clarity. My faith is made of my own lifelong experience of being embraced, cared for, raised up by faith community. Made of the witness of the church and the saints, living and dead; of my ongoing conversation with Scripture, loving and lively and contentious. 

My faith is made of the moments when I can look at the world around me and see that, in the words of a favorite prayer, God is working through our struggle and confusion to accomplish God’s purposes on earth. There is much cause for dismay, anxiety, grief in the world today. I am never one to downplay the seriousness of our shared circumstances. AND: I am 48 years old, beloveds. When I was born, women couldn’t yet legally be priests in the Episcopal Church. In my not quite half a century, so much has changed. When I hang out with our youth group, I’m staggered by everything they know about neurodiversity, mental illness, diversity of gender expression and sexual orientation, racial diversity and systemic oppression…  They know so much more about all the different ways to be human, and what we owe to one another, than I did at their age. If you believe, as I do, that one of God’s purposes on earth is for people to be able to be fully themselves in public, and to share their voices and gifts and skills, and access the things that help them flourish – then God IS working through our struggle and confusion – a LOT of struggle, a LOT of confusion, to be sure – but God IS working through it to accomplish God’s purposes.

My faith is made up of lots of things. And the fact that I can tolerate the perplexing idea of Christ’s victory over death flows out of all these things, rather than being the precondition for them. 

But I cannot talk you into that in three more pages of sermon.  Faith can’t be transplanted. Each of us is on their own path. 

And how do I know that my capacity to have faith – to believe that we are held in love, that an active power of good works in and through us – isn’t fundamentally because I was born into a family where I was able to form secure attachments? Because I’ve always had enough money to be able to feed myself and my children? Because I’m white and middle class and most doors have opened for me, over the course of my life? How can I know that my capacity to have faith isn’t simply a symptom of my privilege? Why should you take my word for it? 

Those are great questions! I’ve wondered about them myself. And the fact is that I don’t fully take my own word for it. The witness of a lot of other people is really important for me. Some are living individuals whose faith and way of being in the world sustain and inspire me. People who’ve lived through loss, pain, struggle, and need, and bear witness that God was in it with them; people who have spent far more time in contemplation, prayer, study and seeking than I have, and have found that the Holy met them on that terrain. I trust their testimony. 

Others are more public property – names you might know. Jon Daniels of blessed memory, a bright, complicated young man from New Hampshire who grappled his way into faith, then heard Martin Luther King Jr. and Mary the Mother of God calling him to join the protests in Selma in 1965. His journals of his time in Alabama show him second-guessing his own motives, mocking his own white-saviorism, learning, growing, seeking, submitting himself more and more fully and finally to God’s purposes. That path led him to death on a dusty road on a hot August day when he stepped between a young black friend and a racist’s gun. 

King himself, who delivered the famous Mountaintop speech 55 years ago this past Monday. He wasn’t scheduled to speak that night, and was exhausted and ill. He spoke frequently of death, that evening; he knew how much danger he was in, moment by moment. Evoking the story of Moses’ death, he told the crowd that he’d been to the mountaintop and seen the promised land; that their journey would continue even if he didn’t get there with them. That his eyes had seen the glory of the coming of the Lord. King was assassinated the next day; he was 39 years old. 

Sophie Scholl, whom I preached about a few weeks ago, and another martyr of the Nazi regime, Dietrich Bonhoeffer. Bonhoeffer’s resistance to white supremacist thought was shaped by the experience of studying with African-American theologians and worshipping with a Black church. Bonhoeffer thought deeply about grace, purpose, right and wrong. His faith led him to active resistance to the Nazi government – resulting in his execution as a threat to the state, just like Jesus. 

And it’s not just people who died for their faith, though their witness bears a particular weight; but people who live for their faith also encourage and ground my faith. 

Desmond Tutu – the first black African bishop in the church in South Africa during Apartheid – who embodied holy joy and holy courage for so many. Once, in August of 1989, Tutu held an Ecumenical Defiance service at the Capetown cathedral, a church counterpart to the anti-apartheid protests outside. When military police entered the cathedral and lined the walls, weapons in hand, Tutu addressed them directly: “You are very powerful, but you are not gods and I serve a God who cannot be mocked. So, since you have already lost, come join the winning side!” 

Pauli Murray, born black, poor, female-bodied and queer in North Carolina in 1910, who fought their way to a distinguished legal career and important work advocating against both racial and sex-based discrimination— and then, late in life, felt a call to the priesthood, becoming the first female-bodied African-American to be ordained in the Episcopal Church. 

Core to both Pauli’s activism and their priesthood was a commitment to reconciliation among humans and between humans and God, with the goal of transforming the world. 

Our own Martina Rippon, who went on ahead last fall. Blocked from pursuing her chosen career as a doctor, Martina spent her life nonetheless in service to others – disaster relief, chaplaincy work, and community organizing. Martina had that Jesus-like quality of being able to talk with anybody – and not just superficially but about the real stuff. She told me, near the end, that she didn’t need anybody with her when she died. That was between her and God, and she was ready, and not afraid. 

When I second-guess myself and wonder if I have faith because my life has been easy, or because I’ve just never really thought it all through, I look to the saints I’ve named here and others. They were able to place their trust in the life and love made known to us in Jesus Christ because of their experiences of divine consolation, clarity, and courage. 

And in thinking of these people, naming these people – I’m not marshaling examples to prove some point to myself or others, as you would in an academic paper.  I’m calling my faith community around me. Just as when it’s been a long time since I last had a clear word from God, or a strong sense of that bedrock of love under my feet, or of the tug of a purpose larger than my own… then a friend, or a colleague, or sharing worship with this community, sustains me and keeps me on the path. Because not only is faith not really a head thing; it’s also not really an individual person thing.

Your struggles and questions – and mine – they do matter, but they also… don’t? This whole – thing – what we do and proclaim today, and every Sunday – does not depend on your personal capacity to assent to a list of propositions. Or mine! It doesn’t depend on it because in the Episcopal Church believing is something we do together. The Creed, the church’s statement of faith, begins, WE believe. (Though for some reason the version in the baptismal liturgy we’ll use today says “I believe” – breathe through it! It’s OK!) We place our trust, our loyalty, in this holy story and what it says about humanity and God and the world, together. As a body. That’s deep in our way of faith as Christians in the Anglican way. It’s why Episcopalians don’t do altar calls, beloveds. Because we don’t believe one by one, like that. We believe together. We trust, we claim, we commit, together.

And the other reason not to be too weighed down by whether you can say a hearty Yes to any given line of the Creed, beloveds, is that if any of us are right about any of it, it doesn’t depend on our believing, on our knowing. This holy story, and the One at the center of it, doesn’t need us to be fully clear and fully convinced to be able to offer us grace, joy, consolation, purpose or possibility through the story and its work within and among us. 

Sixteen hundred years ago or so, the theologian and bishop John Chrysostom wrote a sermon for Easter.  Orthodox churches read it every year; we read parts of it at the Easter Vigil. It’s a wonderful, playful text about how the Easter celebration is for everyone. You who have been part of the community for a long time, and you who showed up at the last possible minute – You who are hard on yourselves, and you who are easy – You who have kept a Lenten fast faithfully, and you who have not –  Celebrate! Rejoice in this glorious feast of feasts! You are an invited and honored guest. 

That’s what I want to say, dear ones. The things the Church proclaims today – the absurd, beautiful Easter Gospel: Christ is arisen, Death is defeated, Love wins – the things we sing and shout, with joy and hope, today, are for everybody. Not forced on you or drummed into you, but offered with welcome and delight. 

You for whom this is so familiar, your umpteenth Episcopal Easter, that you struggle to find refreshment here; and you for whom it’s all so new and strange that it’s hard to keep your feet under you –

You who have seen resurrection enough times that it doesn’t faze you in the least, and you that have seen so much death and loss that the Alleluias come heavy – 

You that came here driven by memory, seeking the past, and you that came here looking for hope, seeking the future – 

You that came here for the music or the sound of voices raised together, and you that came here in hope of a little holy silence – 

You who haven’t been to church for a while and are disappointed by how much has changed, and you who haven’t been to church for a while and are delighted by how much has changed – 

You that want to believe and can’t quite get there, and you that believe almost in spite of yourself –

You that find faith easy but church hard, and you that find church easy but faith hard –

All of you, all of us, nevertheless: Welcome! Rejoice! The banquet is prepared and you are invited! The Kingdom belongs to us all! Christ is risen and Love reigns! Alleluia! 

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