All posts by Miranda Hassett
Sermon, July 9
I don’t do the good thing I want to do, but I do the evil thing that I don’t want to do.
Who’s been there?…
Let me offer a little context before we dive in.
This is the voice of the Apostle Paul.
Paul was one of the most important leaders in the first generation of Christianity – a teacher, preacher, theologian and founder of churches. Many of his letters are preserved in the Bible – as well as a handful of letters that other people wrote and put his name on, hoping to borrow his authority.
Romans is one of the longest of Paul’s surviving letters. Unlike the other letters, Paul is writing to a Christian community that doesn’t already know him – the Christian community in Rome, which was basically the capital of the world at the time. The Roman Empire spread across Europe, the Middle East and North Africa.
It’s going to be a couple of centuries before Christianity is accepted and starts to be a powerful force in Rome, but still, Paul wants to impress the Christian community in Rome. So he’s laying out a lot of his big ideas.
It’s hard to preach on Romans because the little chunks of ten or fifteen verses that we get in the lectionary are pieces of arguments that are, like, three chapters long, and often somewhat nuanced and complex. A preacher has to contextualize before they can do anything else.
But I think this passage catches our attention even without context. I want to do the right thing, but somehow I don’t.
I don’t want to do the bad thing, but somehow I do.
That’s so simple and so real.
But what is Paul saying about this fairly relatable experience?
And why does he keep talking about law, in this passage? …
In this part of Romans, Paul is exploring the meaning of Jewish law, and how this new Christian faith relates to that older way of understanding what it means to be good and righteous.
Being a practicing Jew involves observance of the way of life laid out by the commandments and practices of the Torah, the first five books of the Old Testament. Modern Jews have a wide range of understandings of what observance looks like. Wrestling with how the commandments apply in new circumstances is a core faith practice, in Judaism! But observance of the Law, one way or another, is just part of what it means to be a Jew.
Like most of the first generation of Christians, Paul was a Jew before he became a Christian. He was a very serious and faithful Jew – more on that in a moment.
He is clear that Christianity is a new path of faith that leads away from following the rules of Torah. But he doesn’t want to throw the Law out the window. He believes that the Law is good, and holy – and that for him and others, it was ultimately inadequate, because of this other law – the law of sin – at work within him.
(It is important to say here that we share the faith of Abraham’s God with a whole lot of Jews who do not find the Law inadequate! I trust that God honors all God’s covenants, and that the call of God through Jesus Christ was for those who needed a new path of faith. Anything else is above my pay grade.)
Biblical scholars have wondered a lot about what to make of the “I” in this passage – Paul’s use of the first person singular, here. He hasn’t been writing in this voice, much, before chapter 7.
Why does he suddenly seem to be speaking from experience, talking about the deep inner struggles of his heart?
Well: As a fellow preacher, I definitely think that part of what’s going on here is just a clever rhetorical choice.
Sometimes people like Paul, and me, use a kind of strategic “I”, where it’s not entirely clear whether we’re actually talking about ourselves or using this “I” to kind of stand for everybody.
To say, “People struggle with sin,” is abstract and boring.
To say, “You struggle with sin,” is scary and blame-y.
To say, “I struggle with sin,” as a preacher or teacher, creates a sense of transparency and vulnerability. And the listener or reader has the freedom to say, “Hey, yeah, I know what that feels like too.”
But there’s a bigger question at stake here than Paul’s writing style. That’s the question of whether Paul is describing his own ONGOING experience – or what it was like before he became a Christian.
And that’s a big question because Paul himself says, in various places, that once you’ve become a Christian, committed yourself to Christ, then sin no longer has power over you.
We see it at the end of this passage: “Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!” And he’ll say more in that vein in chapter 8: “For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and of death.”
He talked about it back in chapter 6, too: “We know that our old self was crucified with [Christ] so that the body of sin might be destroyed, and we might no longer be enslaved to sin…. So you also must consider yourselves dead to sin and alive to God in Christ Jesus.” (Romans 6:6-7, 11-12)
Paul wants to say boldly that through our baptism, Christians are now dead to sin, and freed to live with goodness and grace.
But: Paul also finds that he has to keep reminding people in his many churches to STOP SINNING.
Those verses from chapter 6 continue, “Therefore, do not let sin exercise dominion in your mortal bodies, to make you obey their passions.”
And in chapter 8, Paul is also clearly urging Christians to turn away from sinful behavior – a choice they still have to make.
Let me say a word about how Paul talks about sin here: as a separate force at work inside us. This language feels risky to me – it makes room for someone committing atrocious acts to say, “It’s not ME; it’s the sin!”
But at the same time, I do understand. There are times when the thing pulling me away from my best intentions does almost feel like a power or being inside me.
Sin – or as author Francis Spufford renames it, the Human Propensity to Eff Things Up – can take so many forms inside us.
Our many addictions; our urges and our personal weaknesses; established patterns that we know hurt us rather than helping us but that still, like well-worn ruts in a road, draw us into their path…
Sometimes we can name these things, hold them at arm’s length, give them a good hard look.
But that doesn’t instantaneously break their power over us – in us.
So I do recognize the experience Paul is describing here.
I don’t do the good thing I want to do, but I do the evil thing that I don’t want to do….
I realized this week that Paul has a lot in common with today’s exvangelicals – people who have left evangelical Christianity.
Paul was formed by a religious culture in which there’s a right way to do every little thing. And now he has converted to a religious culture, a path of faith, that is much more a matter of personal discernment and struggle.
I’ve had many conversations with people exploring the Episcopal Church after leaving evangelicalism.
One person told me plainly, I know why I left; but there was some real comfort in feeling like I knew exactly how to be in my marriage, how to raise my kids, what books to buy, what music to listen to, and so on.
This business of having some core values and hopes, and figuring the rest out from there, can feel chaotic and scary.
I think that’s right where Paul is. Paul wasn’t just any Jew before he became a Christian. He was a member of a particularly rigorous and prescriptive movement within Judaism. Part of how he feels about the Law, and about his own former life, is that it was really nice to know exactly how to act to be a righteous person. But he also knows deep down that for him, that didn’t make him a good person. It wasn’t salvific – it did not rescue him from himself, the way that Jesus did.
So: He’s a Christian now, and passionately, wholeheartedly so. But he doesn’t find it easy – for himself, or for those he’s teaching and leading.
The upshot of this passage – of this section of Romans – is that that Paul wants very much to say that we are freed from bondage to sin by our baptism, by our belonging to Jesus.
But sin, that Human Propensity to Eff things Up, doesn’t just fall away like a shed skin when we become Christians.
Being freed from bondage to sin doesn’t mean we just walk away. Maybe it just means that now it’s a fair fight.
We have to keep struggling and keep choosing, day by day, sometimes moment by moment.
To keep opting for justice, mercy, kindness, healing, liberation, integrity, generosity, joy.
Maybe the way in which Paul is really speaking from his own heart, his own experience, is in the paradox, the tension, he shows in these chapters – and elsewhere – between his profound sense that his conversion, his becoming a Christian, changed something deep inside him; but that in many ways he is still the same imperfect self, struggling with the same weaknesses.
As a human being and as a preacher, I do relate to that. I do believe that Jesus made and makes a difference, for me, for the world. God coming among us as a human, God sharing our lives, God dying a human death – and a painful and disgraceful human death, at that – God fighting free of the bondage of death and rising to new life – God in Christ claiming us as his own, forever – all of that matters. It made a difference, in some crucial (crucial, which means, cross-shaped) and fundamental way.
And: I know – that my personal transformation is incomplete at best… and that in calling others to transformation of life, in my role as a preacher and pastor, I have to be honest about that reality.
What’s the most important thing to carry away from this text?…
In one on one conversations, I hear fairly often that people feel unsure, unworthy, like their faith isn’t strong enough to really count. And part of that might be that we think being a real Christian means that you just know the right thing to do, and you do it.
This passage normalizes the fact that that’s not true, and never has been.
Even as Paul really wants to say look, we are free from bondage to sin! – he has to acknowledge over and over again that the life of faith involves continuing course corrections, inner struggle, discernment, apology, repentance, making amends, trying to do better next time.
So if anyone has been feeling small or unworthy because they find goodness not to be a straightforward project, I hope this passage – and perhaps this sermon – helps reduce that feeling.
Struggling sometimes, perhaps often, to know the best path – to make the best choice – to do the best thing, even when you have a clear discernment of what the best thing is – in big things or small – having to do that work is not a failure of faithful life.
It is faithful life, and always has been.
Homily, July 2
In Genesis chapter 16, Abram and Sarai get tired of waiting for God to fulfill the promise to give them a son, and take matters into their own hands. Sarai tells Abram to spend some private time with her enslaved Egyptian servant, Hagar. Hagar gets pregnant, and tensions arise between Sarai and Hagar. Sarai treats Hagar so harshly that she runs away into the wilderness. But the Angel of the Lord finds Hagar, sitting near a spring in the desert, and tells her to return to Sarai and submit to her. The Angel also promises Hagar that she will have many descendants, more than can be counted – which sounds a lot like the promise to Abraham! The angel gives Hagar’s son a name: Ishmael, meaning, God has heard you. And Hagar in turn names the being who addresses her, “You are El-Roi” – meaning, The god who sees me.
Wait – isn’t it an angel who addresses her, not God? Yes and no. Often in these early parts of the Old Testament, there is not a clear distinction between God and angel. Chapter 18 begins, “The LORD appeared to Abraham…” and goes on to describe the visit of three men. Those strange visitors are later described again as the (singular) Lord, and then as messengers or angels (which are the same word; “angel” or “messenger” is a translation choice). So: We think of angels as separate and lesser beings, but for this part of the Biblical text, it’s not that clear. Hagar knows she has encountered God, and she’s not wrong.
We need that story to fully understand today’s Genesis reading, from chapter 21, which takes place when Isaac and Ishmael are children. Let me say that we’re taking things out of order – the binding of Isaac, which we heard last week, happens after this – and that the editing in this part of Genesis is a little sloppy; a few verses earlier it said that Ishmael is thirteen years old, but here it sounds like he’s a very small child again.
Anyway: Isaac is born, a baby half-brother for Ishmael, and Abraham and Sarah dote on him. But Sarah’s jealousy smolders. One day Sarah sees Ishmael and Isaac playing together and gets angry. She tells Abraham to cast them out – “for the son of this slave woman shall not inherit along with my son Isaac.”
Abraham is distressed about this! But God tells him not to worry, and that Ishmael, like Isaac, shall become the father of a nation. So Abraham gives Hagar some bread and a canteen of water, and sends her and the child out into the desert. Bye! Good luck!
When the angel of God speaks to Hagar, as she sits weeping and waiting for death, they are meeting again – not for the first time. God repeats the promise that Ishmael’s descendants will become a great nation. And this time God does not send Hagar and Ishmael back to Sarah’s abuse, but lets them start their own lives as free people.
I love the story of Hagar and want to make sure it’s told, every three years when we cycle through the book of Genesis in our Sunday readings. I think it’s important for me because – very early in the story of God’s people – the Biblical text is already laying out some central, holy paradoxes that will carry through. Yes, God calls Abraham and Sarah to be the parents and grandparents of a special, set-apart nation, God’s covenant people; Yes, God also claims Ishmael and makes him part of God’s larger plan. Yes, God appears to Abraham, making him the honored faith-ancestor of three world religions; Yes, God also appears to Hagar, an enslaved woman of another ethnicity.
Hagar names God as “The one who sees me.” God as the one who sees – and cares about – those at the margins, the pushed out, the excluded, the vulnerable and those in need, is a strong theme throughout our Scriptures, Old and New Testament alike.
Many of the founding figures of the United States – and many people today – talk about America as a Christian nation, a country that should enshrine and embody the values and ethics of the Bible. I wonder what it would look like to build a nation on a foundational commitment to this core Biblical value: seeing, honoring, caring for and uplifting those who are poor, vulnerable, excluded, and at risk.
Sermon, The Rev. Lorna Grenfell, June 18
During my younger son’s junior year in high school–most of which was during the Gulf War–we had 3 teenagers from Nazareth living with us and closely watching the news footage every day to see if their homes had been hit by a scud missile. Never one to avoid a fray, that summer my son, age 17, expressed a desire to go home with them for a while to the Holy Land. We searched around and finally sent him off to St. George’s College, part of the Episcopal Diocese of Jerusalem.
While there for two weeks with 85 other young people from all over the world, my son read the Bible in the actual places where the events occurred. For example:
-he walked in sandals down the 15 miles from Jerusalem to Jericho
-he explored, with water up to his chest, Hezekiah’s Well Tunnel under the city
-and one dark night a bunch of these kids was taken out into the Sinai Desert. The leader flung open the door of the jeep and said, “Welcome to the land of a million, million stars!” They were told to go off and find a place where they were totally alone—could not see another soul—and stay there for an hour.
Although I only heard about this after my son Sinjin returned home, I can tell you that his experience alone in the Sinai desert under the night sky was…life changing.
Today, with ambient light from cities, towns, and villages all over the world, I wonder how many of us have actually seen such a night sky, a sky brimming over with stars, a sky in which God seems to have thrown handful after handful of silver glitter into the dark? To give you some idea of the abundance of stars up there, there are 100 billion stars in 2 trillion galaxies in the universe—200 billion trillion stars.
We are told that, realistically, with the naked eye, we can perhaps see 4-5 thousand stars at once.
But, I guarantee…it’s enough.
It’s enough to rend one speechless.
It’s enough to bring one to stillness.
It’s enough to give us humans a visual image to begin to understand and be open to
-our immanent (not far from us) God
-and our transcendent (who birthed all creation) God.
It’s enough to make one feel that (in Rev. Miranda’s words a few weeks back) “divine life is swirling in and through and around all things, all the time, all the way out to the edges of creation and beyond.”
The thought of the divine swirling right here and also through 200 billion trillion stars and beyond is hopefully enough to urge us to be open to receiving moments when the swirling transcendent God becomes the swirling immanent God, and we are overcome with the ineffable magnitude of all of it and overcome with the understanding that God’s promises do not depend on us humans. We are not in charge here.
It was certainly enough thousands of years ago for Abram to trust his total life to God. So let us turn to Abram and Sarai. Their long and convoluted story in Genesis revolves all around a promise from God, and the message there, then and here, today, is that the awesome promises of God do not depend on us.
-God tells Abram, ‘Go to a country I will show you, and I will make of you a great nation’.
-Abram and Sarai leave Haran with their entire household—servants, tents, goats, sheep, family members: all of it
-They trek to Canaan and then move on east of Bethel and on again to the Negeb.
-Then a famine forces them to move down to Egypt.
-The Pharoah takes a liking to Sarai and they must quickly hurry away.
-Back in the Negeb, Abram and Lot argue over the land.
-and on and on, troubles mounting up as troubles do…and still no child.
Finally, Abram complains to God about the unfulfilled promise of many descendants. So, God takes Abram outside the tent and says, ‘Look up at the sky and count the stars—if indeed you can count them.’ Then he says to him, ‘So shall your offspring be.’ and Abram believed the Lord.
Years pass and still the yearned for child, much less the promised descendants that ‘number the stars in the heavens’, do not appear. No. Not even ONE child.
And here is our Psalm of Lament:
“How long, O God? Will you forget me forever; how long will you hide your face from me?”
Slowly, their trust in God wanes. ‘God has forgotten’, they whisper to each other in the dark.
And Sarai’s Egyptian handmaiden Hagar is sent to Abram’s tent. The resulting child Ishmael is born, and more discord follows. Mother and child are banished into the desert and must be rescued and saved by an angel of God….
As the years continue to roll on, the prospects grow dimmer and dimmer.
Sarai is now 90 years old, long past childbearing, and Abram is now 100 years old.
And then, quite suddenly, there are three strangers outside the tent—
3 angels ineffably swirling the transcendent into the immanent.
And suddenly, Abram is running around trying to make them welcome.
And suddenly, he is urging Sarai to prepare a meal, a good meal, for these men.
And where is Sarai? We find her inside, crouching behind the tent flap, stuffing a dish cloth into her mouth to keep from laughing. She’s 90 years ol…and going to have…a baby?
90 years old? Is there really any reason Sarai should not be laughing?
Now. We need to stop here a moment.
I had Miranda put up a photo of Apo Whang-Od while Gail read us the Genesis passage this morning about Sarai. Apo is 106 years old and, this spring she was on the cover of Vogue Magazine in the Philippines. Apo still actively pursues her career in the ancient tradition of “batok” tattoo. In her beads and wearing her red lipstick at 106, she’s absolutely gorgeous!
Also, if you don’t already know, you need to know that there is a fairly powerful and beautiful group of women of a certain age here at St. Dunstan’s Episcopal Church who meet regularly. Elvice, Betty, Gretchen, Diane, Kathy, Gloria, Barb and myself were at the last “Aging” zoom gathering with Miranda, our ‘honorary’ leader. Some may call us old ladies, but we prefer “wise women” or “seasoned saints” or “baba-yagas” or even “crones” or just simply “the coven.” There is always much sharing of stories and laughter, and when all is said and done, the conclusion is inevitably reached that it would be a big mistake to underestimate the importance of an old woman—any old women!
Back to Sarai. Sarai, age 90, is to have a child. God’s promise—descendants to number the stars in the heavens—is finally being fulfilled. We left her covering her mouth, choking with laughter, the tears running down her cheeks. She’s no doubt watching Abram rushing around doing his own very best to keep a straight face and not treat himself to shouts of knee-slapping, raucous guffaws.
And here is our Psalm of Joy: “May all lands be joyful before you, O God, serve with gladness and come before your presence with a song.”
Yes, I do picture Sarai smiling with tears. I think many of us tear up in moments of unutterable joy or beauty or sheer delight. There is joy for the coming child, but there is also lament—for the long waiting, for the lack of trust, for our human frailty, for all that has gone before, some of which proved at times NOT to be so very good.
What is that vulnerable, deep place within each one of us that moves our mouth to smile and our eyes to fill up? I suggest to you this morning that these moments are when the divine, which is indeed ‘swirling all around us’, becomes actually known and actually felt, overwhelming us humans: as when Abram hears God speak to him and upends his whole life, as when Sarai learns she is to have a child and can’t stop smiling and can’t stop the tears. It’s intense and sudden, this awareness of the transcendent becoming immanent, this God of all Creation becoming known and felt right here with us. We feel it. We sense it. We know it, this assuring, presence of a Promise-Keeping God. And we are filled in our deepest core.
I feel certain that some of you are already right now remembering such moments in your life.
Here are some examples:
- A slip of a girl–what is she, 11 or 12 years old—is standing as straight as she can over three huddled children. She slowly raises her thin arms high over her head and her wings of glittering, gold cloth fall gracefully in perfect pleats to the floor. With the deepest, most authoritative voice she can muster, the girl says to the small shepherds, “Fear not!” And because you know this girl, you know her family, you know the cookies she likes at Coffee Hour; you know she is fond of shopping at Goodwill, and you know the particular pair of Doc Marten boots she wants so badly is probably already wrapped and under the tree, because you know, you smile. But the ‘divine is swirling all around’, and in your joy, your eyes fill because you also know that because these children are so young and because you are, well, old enough to have memories, there will occur a number of occasions as their lives unfold and they grow and come into their own, a number of occasions when each of them may quietly whisper those very words to themselves: “Fear not!”
And because there is a past and a present and a future, the transcendent becomes immanent right there in front of you, right there inside you. The ‘divine swirls all around’–the angel, the shepherds, Joseph, Mary, the Innkeeper, the animals, and you. The presence, compassion and love of a Promise-keeping God is made real. Very real. And suddenly…it’s Christmas.
- Or maybe you’re late and rushing to the airport. You’re going to meet and bring home a person whose face has long been lost to you. Maybe a sibling who’s been living abroad for a few years. Maybe your elderly, widowed Dad whom you have finally convinced to make the short but dreaded plane trip to see his grandchildren. Maybe it’s an estranged adult son or daughter wanting at last to let you be a part of their life. The flight is late. The waiting crowd is milling about, but finally the light flashes on the arrivals board. And suddenly the face, the face you have waited so long to see, appears smiling at you out of the crowd, and of course you smile—but for just a few moments, your eyes fill up because the ‘divine is swirling’ all around and through this waiting, churning airport crowd, and it has touched your innermost being with profound joy in this moment and lament for all the lost moments, and the transcendent is right there, immanent, palpable, a very real presence enfolding the two of you in its embrace.
- Or maybe you carefully watched the latest showing of the video of St. Dunstan’s Tale during which you mourned all over again the passing of narrator Celia Fine, and at the very end you see young Wren playing the king with his royal cape and lopsided crown tipping over his eyes. He was probably 3, maybe 4, and reading his part so well—only turning once or twice to an ‘aide’ behind him for help with a big word like ‘principalities’ or ‘iniquities’. You smile because he is, indeed, absolutely adorable and just seeing him fills all the world with joy, but suddenly the tears come because you know all children grow up and understand someday that every king’s crown is always slightly lopsided and that royalty always need aides–many, many aides. And you recognize the transcendent and immanent becoming one right there, that very moment, in front of your very eyes–in young Wren.
- But it’s ordinary lives we are living. Try this. It’s the middle of a cold, dreary November, and you have yet again lived through September and October, the busiest, most over-scheduled months in our American culture. You wake up. It’s early morning and still dark, and you’re suddenly conscious that there is no sound at all—only silence as you lie there. The late theologian Frederick Beuchner put it this way. You jump up. “You…pull up the shade, and what lay there the evening before is no longer there—the sodden gray yard, the dog droppings, the tire tracks in the frozen mud, the broken lawn chair you forgot to put away last fall. All this has disappeared overnight, and what you look out on is…the fresh snow…. The earth is covered with it, and it is falling still in silence so deep that you can hear the silence.” And despite the shoveling and the bad roads ahead, you open the window and let all the newness of the world flow in over you. And the stars shine down and the cold, crisp air fills the room, and the ‘divine is swirling all around’ and you smile with joy in the moment and your eyes fill up in lament for all the times you might have missed just such a moment as this.
To me, a symbol of all this ‘swirling of divinity’, this incomprehensible transcendent becoming immanent, is the night sky of a “million, million” stars. Thousands of years ago, Abram stood under it and looked up as the transcendent became immanent and God spoke and made his promise. And those few moments were enough to carry Abram and Sarai through a life journey of much travail and missteps and wavering of trust—much like our own lives. My friends, the awesome promises of God do not depend on human beings. Sarai at age 90 finally has a baby whom they name Isaac, meaning laughter, and her own name is changed to Sara. And Abram becomes Abraham, the father of three world religions. The awesome promises of God do not depend on us humans.
Four years after my son’s trip to the Sinai desert, he returned there as a writer for a travel guide. He backpacked alone for six weeks through Israel, Jordan and Egypt, and every chance he got, he climbed Mount Sinai to spend the night in his sleeping bag lying under those same stars. As I said, such an experience can be life-changing, and we humans want more of it—this transcendent God ineffably becoming immanent right here with us. We need always, therefore, always to be on the lookout for the ways God chooses to be with us and make God’s own multifaceted self known and felt in our lives.
You may know of the International Dark Skies movement which strives to find and preserve places all over the world where there is little or no ambient light, places where the real heavens can be seen with the naked eye. Such a place is Wisconsin’s own Newport State Park on the tip of land in Door County that juts up into Lake Michigan. This is where the Hassett family is this week. May the dark, starlit sky inspire them to see and feel the ‘divine swirling around them’. Amen.
What is “Rector’s Continuing Education”?…
What is “Rector’s Continuing Education,” and why does it matter?
One line in our annual budget is labeled “Rector Continuing Education.” It’s a small amount – $400 in 2023 (compared to $1000 in 2019) – but you might wonder what those funds are for.
That budget line covers registration fees and expenses like travel, accommodation, and study resources when I participate in a learning opportunity to expand my knowledge and skills as a priest and pastor.
Here are some of my recent Continuing Ed opportunities:
The Forma Conference (online), January 2023
The Forma Conference is for those involved in Christian education and formation ministries in the Episcopal Church and beyond. It’s an amazing opportunity to gather ideas and resources. I listened in on some online sessions of this year’s conference. My biggest take-away was learning about the organization Doing Good Together and their amazing website; their work inspired our spring Kindness and Creation Care Fairs.
The Gathering (in person), May 2023
The Gathering is a group of GenX and Millennial clergy who gather for real, honest, and difficult but hopeful conversations about the challenges and opportunities for the Episcopal Church in this season – and about how we can help the Church move into the future well. This Gathering had been delayed since 2020, and my registration costs were paid then. The church helped cover my airfare this year.
Pastoring for Justice and Healing in a Climate Crisis (in person), May 2023
This free event was hosted locally at Holy Wisdom Monastery. I came away with lots of ideas for building our “Green Team” and weaving climate care into our life together, as well as some new local and regional ecumenical connections.
Contemplative Clergy Renewal program (in person), starting July 2023
I will be attending an 8-day immersion at Holy Wisdom Monastery as part of a cohort of 18 ecumenical pastors participating in contemplative renewal. The Monastery describes the program as “the beginning of a yearlong process focused on the well-being of pastors, especially supporting them in their own spiritual renewal.”
This program is also free. We will need to pay supply clergy for the Sundays I am away, though. I will also attend two additional immersions in January and June of 2024.
Smaller opportunities (online)
I keep an eye out for interesting online short courses, trainings, and talks (such as a recent talk on Ho-Chunk history). Some are free; some involve a modest registration fee.
Something I’d like to do:
Music that Makes Community, Albuquerque, NM, October 2023
Something I’d really like to do is go to a Music that Makes Community gathering this fall. I’ve found those retreats joyful and renewing in the past, and it would also be an opportunity to spend time with a colleague and friend who has been a mentor for me with respect to engaging young children in worship. While I’d like to attend, I’m mindful we’re already over budget on this line for the year.
Why does the church pay for this kind of thing?
Just as your employer may pay for your professional development opportunities, churches also budget for continuing education for clergy. These experiences and opportunities benefit St. Dunstan’s both directly and indirectly. They provide me with resources, ideas, tools, and connections that enrich our life together as a faith community and help us live into our mission more fully. They also provide me with refreshment, encouragement, sustaining colleague relationships, and new approaches that bring me back to my ministry here with fresh energy.
Why is it over budget all the time?
We scaled back this budget line during the pandemic because most events were online and we didn’t have to accommodate travel. Due to budget constraints, we haven’t yet returned the budget to a level that can cover much travel. In addition, plane tickets are more expensive than they used to be, which makes it easier to go over budget if I travel at all.
We’re really fortunate this year to have two significant opportunities close by that are fully funded. That’s pretty unusual and special!
This sounds great; can non-clergy do any of this stuff?
Yes, some of these opportunities – like Forma, climate care events, and Music that Makes Community gatherings – are absolutely open to lay people, too! (Two of our members, Elvice McAlpine and Mary Ann Fraley, took a class on the Doctrine of Discovery recently in order to bring back some new understandings to the parish.) We even have a modest fund to help lay members of the parish access opportunities like this.
If you have capacity and interest in doing some learning or skill-building in any area related to church, mission, or spirituality, talk with me and we can explore resources and opportunities that might be a good fit!
Warmly, Rev. Miranda+
Sermon, June 11
In the letter known as Romans, the apostle Paul was writing to the Christian community in Rome, which he didn’t know yet; his other letters are largely to churches and people whom he knew well.
He’s trying to present himself and his understanding of the Gospel, in a way that will make the church in Rome take him seriously.
One of the early topics Paul takes up is the question of the place of Gentiles, non-Jewish Christians, in the church, in a time in which Christianity was still largely a movement with in Judaism.
Paul himself has been a faithful and observant Jew. When he mentions “the Law” here, that is shorthand for the whole way of life to which the Jewish people are called through their covenant relationship with God – prayer and worship practices, kosher food rules, rules about money, wealth, and land, and much, much more.
And, of course, circumcision – the core mark of the covenant.
Paul is arguing with the idea that only people who already follow Jewish law can become part of this new thing God is doing in Jesus Christ. And he does so by talking about Abraham, the person with whom God formed the first covenant that became the basis for the Jewish faith.
Paul says that God called and blessed Abraham not because Abraham was a righteous Jew – there was no such thing yet! – but because Abraham was faithful. He responded readily to God’s call, and went where God sent him.
And therefore – Paul says – God can likewise call faithful Gentiles today. Obedience to the Law is not the only way to enter into relationship with the God of Israel, made known in Jesus Christ.
That’s what Paul is up to, here.
But Paul is also simplifying Abraham’s story a good bit!
Let’s take a look.
Paul says, “No distrust made [Abraham] waver concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, being fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised. …”
Well… Yes. But also: no.
Our Genesis text today is the beginning of Abraham’s story. At this point his name is Abram – and his wife is Sarai. We are still early in first book of the Bible; the LORD who speaks to Abraham is not yet really known to humanity. The last human God spoke to was Noah, and that was many generations earlier.
So Abram’s ready response to God, when God addresses him out of the blue, is striking. God tells a wealthy, 75-year-old man to up and leave home – and Abram says, Okay.
I wonder if Abram’s responsiveness has to do with the fact that despite his wealth, Abram wants something very much indeed. He wants a child. He and Sarai have never been able to conceive. And even though God doesn’t specifically promise, yet, to give them a child, God does promise to make Abram a great nation. That his lineage won’t die out, as he fears.
That catches Abram’s attention… and perhaps drives his willingness to follow this call. Maybe what we have here is a meeting of deep needs: God wants to call and form a nation, and Abram wants to be a dad.
So, here, at the very beginning, yes, we see Abram’s trust in God. This is a heck of a leap of faith.
But there are lots of other moments in Abram’s story that are less clear.
Abram and his household travel into the land of Canaan, and he builds an altar and worships God. But then there’s a famine and Abram and Sarai go to Egypt.
Abram tells Sarai, “You are a beautiful woman; and when the Egyptians see you, they will say, ‘This is his wife’; then they will kill me. So, say you are my sister, so that my life may be spared on your account.” …!!
Pharaoh, the king of Egypt, takes note of Sarai’s beauty and takes her into his house as a wife, and gives Abram a lot of gifts as thanks!
But then God afflicts Pharaoh with various plagues, and Pharaoh figures out that Sarai is Abram’s wife and angrily gives her back.
And Abram sets off again – with Sarai, and all the gifts from Pharaoh.
It’s an unsettling episode, and suggests a deep fearfulness in Abram – such that he won’t even protect his own wife.
God speaks to Abram again in a vision, and Abram complains that God has still given him no children; his heir is a favored servant. God says, “Your very own child shall be your heir… look towards heaven and count the stars: so shall your descendants be!”
Then we get the line Paul is quoting, here in Romans: “[Abram] believed the Lord; and the Lord reckoned it to him as righteousness.” In other words: Abram’s trust in God’s promise counted as righteousness, before the Law existed as the measure of human righteous behavior.
Yet in the very next verses Abram questions God! God promises Abram that his descendants will have a homeland, and Abram asks, “O Lord God, how am I to know that I shall possess it?”
It’s one of a number of places in Scripture where somebody asks God for a sign to confirm that a prophetic message actually has authority behind it!
God gives Abram his sign, and and a more detailed promise of a future homeland. Now is Abram able to trust in God’s very specific and detailed promises? Well. Sort of.
Abram – now 86 years old – and Sarai decide to take matters into their own hands with respect to this promised child. It seems that Sarai cannot have children, so she tells Abram to spend some private time with her enslaved Egyptian servant, Hagar. If Hagar and Abram have a child, that child could also be “counted” as Sarai’s child, because Hagar is enslaved.
This arrangement was not so strange, in that time and place – something to bear in mind when people talk about Biblical marriage! But Genesis lets us know that it was still not a great idea, here. Hagar does get pregnant, and tensions arise between Sarai and Hagar.
When Sarai complains, Abram tells Sarai, She’s your slave; do whatever you want to her.
So Sarai drives Hagar away into the desert.
I want to talk about Hagar another time, so let me just say here that this sure seems like another significant failure of trust.
Both in taking this ill-advised path towards providing Abram with a son; and then not having the courage to stick with that plan and protect the woman carrying his much-wanted child.
FOURTEEN YEARS PASS. Then God shows up again. God gives Abram a new name, Abraham; God once again promises Abraham many offspring and a homeland; and introduces the covenant sign of circumcision.
Then God gives Sarai a new name too – Sarah – and says that Abraham and Sarah will have their own child.
Remember when Paul said, “[Abraham] did not weaken in faith when he considered his own body, which was already as good as dead (for he was about a hundred years old), or when he considered the barrenness of Sarah’s womb”?
Well: Genesis chapter 17, verse 17, says: “Then Abraham fell on his face and laughed, and said to himself, ‘Can a child be born to a man who is a hundred years old? Can Sarah, who is ninety years old, bear a child?’” ROTFL!
Finding this promised child improbable, Abraham asks God to instead bless Ishmael, the son he had with Hagar.
God says, I will bless Ishmael; but you and Sarah will have a son.
And Abraham believes all this enough to circumcise himself and all the men and boys of his household – so that’s saying something!…
In Genesis 19, three angels visit Abraham and Sarah and repeat the promise that they will have a son. We’ll hear that story next Sunday.
But then – while we’re waiting on Isaac’s promised conception – Abraham and Sarah travel again, and once again Abraham tells the locals that Sarah is his sister, and once again the local king – King Abimelech of Gerar – takes Sarah as a wife! God tells the king in a dream, “You are about to die because of the woman whom you have taken; for she is a married woman.” Abimelech, like Pharaoh before him, is pretty mad at Abraham about the situation.
Abraham explains that Sarah is actually his half-sister, so it’s not a lie really; and he says, “I did it because I thought, There is no fear of God at all in this place, and they will kill me because of my wife.”
Abimelech gives Sarah back to Abraham, and 1000 pieces of silver besides.
So, even after all these concrete, specific promises that he and Sarah will have a child, Abraham is still doing this weird, fearful thing, putting his wife at risk!
After that, finally, Sarah conceives and baby Isaac is born. Sarah gets jealous of Hagar again, and Hagar is driven out, again. Then we come to the story of the binding of Isaac – which it’s possible to read as the ultimate proof of Abraham’s trust in God, or as the most fundamental failure of trust possible. Father John will speak about that story in a couple of weeks, so I’ll leave it there for now.
I want to be clear: These are ancient, ancient stories, which probably tell us more about how the Israelites were trying to make sense of their own history and what it meant to be God’s people, than they do about specific things that happened in the literal historical sense.
But: the minds and hearts and voices that passed down these stories, and eventually crafted them into texts that endure, were thoughtful and wise.
They expected readers or hearers to come to know Abram’s story as a whole.
They expected readers or hearers to see Abram struggling with faith, with trust, in all these little separate episodes and in the overall story arc.
Abraham’s story is a lot more complicated than Paul makes it. It is not just one simple, whole-hearted Yes that settles things for good.
Abram lived a long life, with many twists and turns. There were times when he felt very clear in his path and his relationship with God, and times when he really second-guessed whether God was with him or had a purpose or plan for him. When he questioned whether God would lead him through whatever he was facing.
And I think that’s important. Not just as a matter of arguing with Paul’s exegesis, his interpretation of Abraham’s life, but for us as people of faith.
While I can’t relate to most of the specifics of Abraham’s story, the pattern – the ebb and flow, the push and pull – of his life of faith seem very familiar to me.
I do have a base level of trust in God’s goodness; I believe that God loves and holds me.
But that by no means makes it easy to navigate or bear everything that life brings. I struggle, and second-guess, and question, too.
Having and holding a basic, core Yes to God doesn’t mean we don’t wobble or waver. And I think there’s hope in that, actually.
Not so much in Paul’s reading of Abraham’s story – Paul’s description of Abraham as someone who was SO faithful, who believed SO strongly, never questioning, that God blessed him and worked through him to accomplish God’s purposes.
But there’s hope when we read Abraham, the great-grandfather of three world religions, the way that Genesis actually presents him: as someone who wants to believe; who struggles and yearns and messes up, yet fumbles his way through a faithful life. Confused, impatient, often afraid. But still: a life of faith. A life in conversation with God. A holy dance with God’s purposes for self and others.
May we indeed have a faith like Abram.
Amen.
New sign project, summer 2023!
Scroll down for photos – but read about the project first!
UPDATED, JUNE 27: Here’s a new image of the two top colors, according congregational vote – red and black, and blue and black – and also a red and dark brown option.

Why a new sign? …
The new sign is a lingering project from our 2018-2019 capital campaign and renovation, the Open Door Project. In our campaign documents, we explained, “Guests often tell us it’s difficult to find our driveway. Changes to University Avenue [in 2012] reduced the visibility of our existing sign.”
The existing two roadside signs are dated in style and difficult to see. The one on the hill doesn’t help with wayfinding at all, since it’s fairly difficult to even see it behind the railings that the city installed in 2012. (There was an open hillside there, previously.)
Visitors and newcomers tell us that the smaller sign by the driveway is just not big or bold enough to be much help. At best, it confirms that they’re turning into the right place, after navigation software has already brought them here.
Why move the sign?…
City code will not allow us to build a new sign where the old signs are. We’ve explored this pretty thoroughly, and there’s simply no wiggle room. The existing signs violate city code, and if we change or update them at all, we have to get rid of them.
To build anything newer and better, we have to move it back from University Avenue, out of the zone where the city will not allow signage.
The proposed location won’t tell people where to turn. But it will tell people that they’re entering the campus of St. Dunstan’s Church. With the new apartment building next door, a lot more people turn into our drive now, and a large, attractive sign at this location will help let them know where they are. (It may also discourage parking on the grass there, which has been an issue recently!)
A sign at this location will also be visible to approaching traffic in the eastbound lane of University – more visible than our existing large sign up on the hill. Many people drive along University every day, so a striking and inviting sign at the new location will still catch peoples’ eyes.
A few design notes…
The proposed design doesn’t include any information besides the name of the church. Minimal text, as large as possible, is the best choice for catching the eye of drivers. We find that most people have looked at the website before visiting, so we don’t need to try to add service times or other information to the ground sign.
The sign will be about 12 feet tall and 4 feet wide, and lighted internally for nighttime visibility.
Because there are trees behind the sign, the sign needs some strong colors to stand out and be visible.
Share your feedback!…
What color do you prefer?
What else do you notice or wonder about this new sign proposal?


Sermon, June 4
- The Creation Story
- Why we have it today: Trinity Sunday.
- God the Creator; the wind from God; and God’s creating Word, which, later, John’s Gospel will identify with Jesus. “In the beginning was the Word…”
- The Trinity is the Church’s understanding and teaching about how One God can have three Persons – God the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit; the One who Creates, Befriends, and Inspires. And I’m not going to talk about the Trinity today.
- Instead, I’m going to use the opportunity of the Creation story to talk about something I did last week, and what it’s left me thinking about.
- Why we have it today: Trinity Sunday.
- But first, I want to talk a little about the Creation story itself.
- Genesis 1 and 2 are not a scientific account of how the world was formed. We do not have to choose between this story and the stories told by physics and biology.
- But these chapters are a sacred account of God’s relationship with creation, and humanity’s relationship with creation. In that vein they say some important things which I find, basically, to be true.
- First, it all begins with beauty, with diversity and plenty, and with belovedness. Every step of the way, God calls Creation good!
- Second: Somewhere along the way, something went awry. Genesis 2 and 3 tell that story: The first humans – Adam and Eve – are warned away from the tree of knowledge, but the serpent tempts them, and they eat. As a result, God sends them forth from the garden; from that point onward, they are condemned to struggle and work the earth – and to kill animals – for their food. This part of the story is often called the Fall.
- It’s a complicated story; it’s easy to point out the embedded misogyny, and some extremely bad parenting on God’s part.
- But when we as the Episcopal Church name this as Scripture, as holy text, we don’t mean that we have to take it at face value. We mean that we can look for the ways our faith-ancestors were coming to understand themselves, the world, and God.
- This story in particular points to a sense of loss – of a sense of intimacy and belonging with the land and living systems.
- Look: The first time I tried to write this part of the sermon it started to turn into an anthropology lecture and got way too long. Let me try to keep it simple!
- The idea of a kind of romantic primeval simplicity, of an original harmony between humans and the land, is not especially faithful to the facts in many cases, and can be risky to tell.
- But if we look at the lifetime of our species as a whole, it is not wrong to say that there has been a worldwide, long-term trajectory – over tens of thousands of years – away from immediate relationship with the land and living systems.
- And I think we have felt that loss, culturally and collectively, and expressed it in various ways, including in this particular Scriptural story.
- And I think many of us feel that loss individually, and grieve it, and wonder how it could be otherwise.
- Which brings me to where scripture goes next! As we move through Genesis, as God calls a people and invites them into covenant relationship, humanity’s relationship with the land is a big part of the story.
- Old Testament scholar Ellen Davis and others argue that the Abrahamic covenant has three parties – God, humanity, and the land.
- God’s people are called into right relationship with the land – treating it with respect and care, not as a tool for individual wealth but as a resource for shared flourishing.
- In Davis’s words, “We are answerable to God for how we use the physical order to meet our physical needs.”
- Old Testament scholar Ellen Davis and others argue that the Abrahamic covenant has three parties – God, humanity, and the land.
- So: there’s a core story here in which the Earth is created in love, with enough for all; over time, humans’ increasingly extractive relationship with the natural world have harmed creation and alienated much of humanity from the land and living systems; and part of our responsibility as God’s people is to strive towards a new relationship of restorative care for creation.
- That is a sacred story in which I find meaning and purpose, as a Christian in the time of climate crisis.
- And THAT brings me to what I did last week.
- From Monday afternoon through Wednesday morning, I attended an event called “Pastoring for Justice and Healing in a Climate Crisis.” If that sounds like a big topic… it was.
- It was hosted up the road at Holy Wisdom, and put on by several organizations, including Creation Justice Ministries, Faith in Place, and Garrett Seminary.
- It brought together clergy and lay leaders from many denominations, from Chicago, northern Illinois, and southern Wisconsin, for common learning and networking.
- We learned about climate emotions, about the impacts of climate change in our region and in our hearts, about the interconnectedness of climate change with structural injustice, about resources and initiatives and possibilities. It was hard and exciting and important.
- It’s hard to boil down what I carried away, honestly. It was kind of a fire-hose situation. And I’ll be taking some of it to the upcoming Green Team organizing meeting.
- But here are three points I’d like to share, today, as we wonder how to live into our responsibility to strive for a renewed relationship of care with God’s wounded creation.
- From Monday afternoon through Wednesday morning, I attended an event called “Pastoring for Justice and Healing in a Climate Crisis.” If that sounds like a big topic… it was.
- Point one is that churches matter.
- One of the presenters, a scientist, said: Look, we climate scientists have botched this. We haven’t let people know why climate change matters to them, and we haven’t let them know what they can do to help.
- There is a real role, in the large-scale movement that needs to grow and spread and deepen, for communities organized around common hopes and values – such as faith communities.
- We can be learners together. Getting to know our local environment deeply, our human and non-human neighbors, and learning to love and serve them. Learning about the impacts of climate change here, now, in five years, in fifteen, in fifty.
- We can be advocates together, raising our voices to our neighbors and leaders about the losses and the costs if no action or not enough action is taken, and speaking up for changes that matter.
- We can be change-makers together. We can learn about the impact of our actions and choices, and make small changes that add up as we undertake them together and spread the word – especially in partnership with other like-minded faith communities.
- And we can be helpers together, learning about what kinds of climate crises are most likely to impact our communities and how we as a church could be a resource. For example, we could prepare to be a cooling station in a future heat wave, as a respite for neighbors.
- Point two is that the leaders of this event really stressed that climate change is an intersectional issue – meaning, it intersects with race, class, gender, and other axes of injustice.
- We are a church with many commitments and I think we can sometimes feel like we’re pulled in different directions. That there’s potential for competition between issues for time and attention and resources.
- But our presenters said: Climate change intersects with poverty. Climate change intersects with structural racism. Take just about any social justice issue and ask, Where does this connect with climate change, in terms of current impact or future risk? Or take any climate issue and ask: How will this effect marginalized communities? The connections are there.
- So we can work towards an integrated awareness – and integrated engagement – that recognizes the reality of these interconnections.
- Listen to the mission statement of the Center for Ecological Regeneration at Garrett Seminary in Chicago, one of the event sponsors: “For the just healing of wounded socio-ecological relationships in the midwest bioregion and beyond.” For the just healing of wounded socio-ecological relationships… Isn’t that an interesting? Doesn’t it make you want to learn more? We can! …
- Point three is that we are surrounded by things that are dying. By signs of endings, in the words of a favorite Advent hymn.
- I’m not talking about people here, but about institutions, systems, norms, ways of being.
- Whether it’s fast casual dining or mainline institutional Christianity, there is a lot of change and struggle and, let’s be frank, a lot of death in our cultural, economic, and social world right now.
- In the ecological world, a death means a release of resources and nutrients, and perhaps a niche in a system, made available for other living things to use.
- Just the other day, I harvested some mushrooms on our grounds that were happily digesting a chunk of dead elm tree.
- At a larger scale than a single dead organism, the collapse or decay of systems from order towards chaos also creates certain kinds of opportunities.
- Bill Mollison, a founding figure in the permaculture movement, describes chaos as an opportunity for creative re-ordering.
- In nature, death and decay present opportunities for rebirth and new growth. The dying of the old makes room for the new.
- That’s not a reason to be callous or cavalier about the losses of our times. But it is a reason not to despair. A reason to actively engage in imagining and building possible futures.
- The speaker who shared all this was Tim Eberhard of Garrett Theological Seminary. And the part that I keep thinking about is when he said that all our institutions are facing death – by kenosis or apocalypse.
- Let me explain those two big words. Kenosis is a theological term, based in how the apostle Paul talks about Jesus Christ in his letters. It’s from the Greek word for empty, and refers to Christ’s laying down divine power and glory to live – and die – as a human being.
- Kenosis refers to a willing, chosen laying down of self-interest or even self, for the sake of the other or the greater good.
- Apocalypse is a more familiar word but let me remind us of its theological meaning: signs that point us towards the end of the present age, the Eschaton.
- I’m not talking about people here, but about institutions, systems, norms, ways of being.
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- That end may come with a bang or a whimper; it may be violent or glorious or both.
- Wikipedia points out aptly that the word “apocalypse” has come to be used as a synonym for catastrophe, but in the original Greek it means “revelation” – a showing of hidden truths. The climate crisis shows us how something can be both at once – catastrophe and revelation.
- Tim said that the the multi-systemic collapse that we’re beginning to see now, worldwide, is overdue and earned. We have done too much in so many ways – too much extractive monocropping, too much burning of fossil fuels, too much cutting down rainforests, too much creating cheap and disposable consumer goods and burning fuel shipping them around the globe, too much dumping garbage and toxic chemicals into our air and waters, too much, too much, too much.
- The collapse is overdue, and earned; AND it will be incredibly costly to people, creatures, and ecosystems. It is nothing to celebrate.
- But it is also not a reason to lose hope. Hope is not naive optimism; true hope begins from excruciating realism. And true hope names that seasons of collapse are also times of immense opportunity.
- When Tim said that endings are coming for us all, whether by kenosis or apocalypse, he means, I think, that we have choices.
- As a church: we can’t choose the times we live in or the epochal challenges we face.
- We can choose whether to carry on as usual until apocalypse shakes and shatters us; or to recognize those signs of endings all around us, and spend our resources, time, and skill for the sake of the common good, towards a renewed future.
- Tim said: There is good news in this season for dreamers, prophets, and builders. There is an opportunity here for deep change – if we seize it.
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- Genesis tells us: We belong here. We are part of a Creation that is beautiful and bountiful and beloved. We have a special, God-given role to tend it and help it flourish.
- And: Much has gone awry. As a species, we have lost so much knowledge of, and intimacy with, the land and living systems.
- So much is wounded, askew, spiraling towards catastrophe.
- But there is hope. If we face our situation honestly and boldly. If we build connections – between one another, between churches and organizations, between climate change and our daily choices, between climate change and the other issues that occupy our days and our hearts.
- Tim ended his talk with a quote from Willie James Jennings, one of the great theological voices of our times and a Black Baptist pastor. I’m going to end with Jennings’ words too: “These days I am trying to understand how to be Christian in the dirt. Which means I am trying to think theologically from dirt and trees, sky and water, ocean and animals—not as background to life but as the reality of connection that prepares us for the living of life together.”
- Beloved friends, let’s work together to figure out what it means to be Christians in the dirt. Amen. Alleluia.
Sources:
Ellen Davis quoted in Sojourners, Oct. 30, 2013
https://sojo.net/articles/ellen-davis-unearths-agrarian-view-bible
The Willie James Jennings article quoted:
https://www.christiancentury.org/article/how-my-mind-has-changed/caught-god
Homily, Pentecost 2023
So we’ve had TWO stories today: first the one with Moses and Eldad and Medad, from a book in the Old Testament called the Book of Numbers – that’s a funny name, isn’t it? It’s because there’s a lot of counting in that book, actually! – and then we had the Pentecost story, from the Book of the Acts of the Apostles, which is a fancy way of saying, The Book of Stuff the Apostles Did.
Did anybody notice something similar between those two stories? …
That second story, the Pentecost story, is the story of this day, the feast of Pentecost. Our calendar of readings gives us that other story, from the wilderness time when Moses was leading God’s people, to help us notice what’s the same in those stories.
There are a lot of differences too! But in both stories we see God’s Spirit coming to people and making them act in surprising ways! Shouting and dancing, preaching and prophesying.
Now, here’s an important thing to know: Sometimes the Bible argues with itself.
Which isn’t that surprising when you realize that the Bible is really only barely one thing. There are all different kinds of texts in the Bible, from different times and places, talking about different things in different ways. And sometimes they disagree.
Today, our short Gospel lesson – so short you could almost miss it – says that when Jesus was saying goodbye to his friends, before he was arrested and crucified, there wasn’t a Holy Spirit yet.
John thinks that the Holy Spirit didn’t show up until Jesus had gone to be with God. That you can either have Jesus around, or the Holy Spirit, but you’ll never see them both at the same party.
There was actually a big split in Christianity about this!
Christians understand God as being three different people (or Persons) who are also somehow all one Person. We call that the Trinity and we celebrate it next Sunday.
Note: I am about to make some very complicated things, very simple…!
The first Person of the Trinity is God the Creator and Source; the God whom Jesus calls Father. The God in whom we live and move and have our being, as we heard Paul say a couple of weeks ago. The God who is always making the universe, and holding all things together.
The second person is Jesus, God come to dwell among us as a friend, teacher and helper.
And the third Person is the Holy Spirit, God who comes close like a wind, like breath, like the warmth of the sun, like waves washing over your feet at the beach. She helps us discover our gifts and find our way and feel God’s presence.
In the first years of Christianity, people were trying to understand how God could be all one God, but also be these different Persons. How those three aspects of God related to each other.
And the understanding they came to was that the three Persons of the Trinity are different, but they are equal in glory, equally eternal, equally holy.
But later on, some Christians started to think that the Holy Spirit was sort of secondary to Jesus. The technical language is that the Holy Spirit proceeds from the Father – God the Creator – and the Son, Jesus Christ. That God and Jesus get together and send out the Holy Spirit. (Actually, the way John’s Gospel talks about the Holy Spirit is pretty central for this view.)
Now, that difference really mattered to people, because it was about the importance they gave to either the Holy Spirit or Jesus.
So there was a big split, about 800 years ago! The church in western Europe said, We know the church has always said it was THIS way, but now we think it’s really THIS way. So we’re going to change the Nicene Creed, this ancient statement of the church’s faith, and add this thing called the Filioque clause. That means “and the son” – as in, The Holy Spirit proceeds from the Father and the son.
And the Eastern church said no thank you, that doesn’t seem right to us! We are not going to change!
Back in 1994, the Episcopal Church, our parent church, decided that maybe we in the Western church got it wrong and shouldn’t have made that change – or at least that it wasn’t important enough to split over! So we are authorized to use a version of the Creed without the Filioque – which I know sometime surprises visitors or newcomers from other churches.
Our story from the Book of Numbers today is just one example of something that sure sounds like the Holy Spirit doing her thing in the world, a long before the time of Jesus!
Let’s imagine a little timeline with a couple of other examples.
First, we start with the creation story the very beginning of the book of Genesis. The very first words in the Bible say, “In the beginning, when God created the heavens and the earth, the earth was a formless void, and darkness covered the face of the deep, while a wind from God swept over the face of the waters.”
A wind from God, stirring up the waters, before there was land or light or living things! We just heard about the mighty wind of Pentecost – we know that the Holy Spirit can feel like wind!
We know this is a holy story that is different from what science says about how the world began. But life on earth did begin in water, in ancient, ancient oceans and lakes!
Now, a long, LONG time later, like 3.7 billion years after life began on earth, we have our story from Numbers, when God’s spirit empowers some people to share leadership with Moses.
Now let’s add another example I really like. There are a couple of places in the Bible before Jesus that talk about Lady Wisdom. In Proverbs, which is from maybe a thousand years before Jesus, and in the Wisdom of Solomon, which is maybe a hundred years before Jesus.
The Wisdom of Solomon describes Wisdom as a Spirit that is intelligent, holy, active, generous, kind, and peaceful. She is a breath of God’s power, and an emanation of the glory of the Almighty and a reflection of the eternal light! And in every generation she passes into holy souls and makes them friends of God, and prophets.
That sure sounds like what we know about the Holy Spirit!
Continuing our timeline, we get to the time of Jesus’ life… and then there’s the first Pentecost, from the Book of Acts, fifty days after the first Easter!
And then a couple of thousand years later there’s us, here, at St. Dunstan’s. Still honoring and calling on the Holy Spirit!
(Zoom: wave red things)
So that’s a timeline of sorts. There are probably other examples we could have filled in here. But it sure seems to me like God’s people have always experienced God’s presence and guidance and power, in ways that sound a whole lot like what the Church calls the Holy Spirit.
The Jewish people, the people of God’s first and continuing covenant, don’t talk about a Holy Spirit. But they see this too and they have their own ways of talking about God’s Presence in the world.
So when John says there was no Holy Spirit before Jesus, I don’t know if he’s just wrong or if he’s not being careful with his words.
People sometimes say that Pentecost is the church’s birthday, but it’s not the Holy Spirit’s birthday. She was already around!
She just came to the first Christians in a new way, that day, and gave them new powers and a new mission.
But I think it’s really really cool to look back over all these holy stories and many more, all the ways the Holy Spirit has given people wisdom and courage and creativity and comfort and hope and vision and joy, and stirred up God’s people to join God’s work.
That’s why we celebrate the Holy Spirit today and I hope that’s why we look and listen for the presence of the Holy Spirit often!
Covid policy update, May 25, 2023
With the end of the federal Covid public health emergency on May 11, some kinds of Covid tracking and reporting have ended – including the CDC’s Community Level system, which has been the basis for St. Dunstan’s masking policy and week by week recommendations.
Dane County will still maintain a Covid data dashboard, and we will continue to monitor that dashboard and notify the congregation of any notable upswings in Covid or other serious illnesses.
Right now the Vestry will maintain our policy of having masks be optional at 10AM worship, and other in-person events (unless specified otherwise), until and unless conditions warrant a change in policy.
We will also maintain masking for all at the 8AM service. If you attend, or would like to attend, the 8AM service and have thoughts about masking policy at that service, feel free to email at any time.
Please wear a mask at church if you have symptoms of illness or a recent known Covid exposure. If you have unexplained symptoms consistent with Covid, please consider staying away from in-person worship.
Our parish leadership supports those who choose to wear a mask for any reason. Bear in mind that asking someone why they wear a mask may amount to a request for private medical information. Extend grace to one another and trust that each one is making the decision that is best for them.